I have been not blogging for a while. Lots of weird stuff going on in my life.
First, I started having trouble with the eyes and had to go through a eye laser treatment. Was totally bummed out.
Then I started to realize that I am getting depressed. Once I realized that, it just drained all my energy and sent me into a nice spiral into the dark end. Now I am recovering and trying to crawl back out.
Lots of interesting insights into myself as I pull myself out. Will be talking more on that.

Last week I went in for regular eye exams and suddenly my right eye will just not be able to focus on the letters. No changes in the lens made any difference. The doctor then put somethng to inflate my eye and check and told me that I need to go see a specialist ASAP right now. She told me that diabetes is starting to take a toll.

Next day I was in the specialists office. He ended up injecting a dye in my arm and taking pictures of the eye. After some brilliant images, I sat with the doctor and he explained to me that I have leaking blood vessels in my eye. This leave some stuff in the eye that can start to cover your retina.

Unluckily for me the leakage in my right eye was closer to the center of the eye, so it started to affect the ability of my eye to focus. Bummer....

I am going in for a laser surgery today to stop the bleeding. Hopefully not ruin the eyes anymore.

I hate the idea of going blind, but am going to forget about it and get some treatment for now.

April 2008 update for FightType2.com

What is New on the FightType2.com website?

- Added Graphical reports for the A1C Data. Check it out at A1C Report  .

- New Calendar control is now active on the A1C input screen. Looking for feedback if this is faster than the ones on the weight and sugar input screens.

What am I working on for the next month?

    * Mobile pages to make data entry easy through cell phone browsers.

 I can say that I love  testing my sugars !!
I test it four times a day and then record each data into my site FightType2.com.

Last weekend I finished my strips and asked for a refill, but the pharmacy needed to call my doctor who did not respond in time, so I found myself without any test strips for a whole weekend. I was nervous as hell. I know that if I am not testing then I am not watching what I am consuming. I survived, but did learn some things about myself.
Here is a summary -
- If I am not testing, my diet restrictions get relaxed. This is a spiraling relaxation, i.e. it keeps relaxing more and more as days go by.
- My mind keeps reminding me to exercise. But not watching the sugars means that I am more willing to make excuses to not exercise to myself.
- No strips, less control, does not mean less stress. Each night before going to sleep, I would always stress on whether I am doing good.
- I missed testing my fasting sugars the most. In my head I want this number to be the most in control. Why, I do not know.

I got my strips in yesterday, finally. Checked my sugar after lunch, I was at 131.

Whoo hoo!!! still doing good.

I started taking a metfornin tablet in the morning in addition to the one that was having with dinner. The doctor told me that this was better as there is no weight gain associated with this medication, but I am seeing a small creep up in my weight, about a pound a week gain each of the last four weeks.

So I got to thinking what was up with this whole situation and I started back onto tracking what I eat and how I exercise.

Here are the results -
1) Because of the metfornin, my sugars are coming out great compared to before. So I am generally relaxing on various issues.
2) I have started eating more carbs as now my body is handing them better.
3) I also starting eating a cookie a day. Indulging back in the sweet tooth as now the medication is helping the numbers.
4) Since the specter of higher sugars is sort of removed, my level and frequency of exercise is down.

All in all, the medicine does not seem to have a direct affect on the weight, but the fact that I am relaxing my strict diet and exercise regimen is leading the the weight gain.

Now that I have reasoned out the reason, I need to get back on the wagon. That is always the hardest part :-)