I hate my diabetes. I don't want this disease any more. It is hard enough trying to take care of a t2 child, who by the way does not care what her bs # are ever. I thought about putting an add in the county paper.

Free to anyone who wants it. Diabetes. Will need to give self daily shots x2 aday. Will have to take oral diabetes meds. And will have to worrie about complactions. You will have to check your blood suger apon waking. And when ever you feel dizzie. Oh and will have to pay out the nose for meds and testing suplies if you don't have insurance. And will not beable to eat what you once did. And parties, well if you take my diabetes and eat one peice of the wrong food. Well you will never beable to realy have fun at parties. Dr vists every 3-4 months. And if you travel and like to camp and other things.....well you have to learn a whole new way of doing things there too. Have to figure out ways to keep cool meds cool with out freezing them. Call or come see me I will give this to you for free!!!!!!!!

But what would that add mean. Nothing! I will never beable to get rid of this nightmare. When pepole find out I am a T2 the frist thing I hear is. Oh you must have been fat at one time. Um....NO!!! My dr told me that sometimes pepole get diabetes for no one reason. And told me no matter how much less I weighed I will still have this stupid freaking disease. :(

I read where pepole say all the time that diabetes is the best thing that has ever happen to them. Well godley! Because they now eat better. They now get out a walk, ride there new bike, or other things to get fit. Well to them I say: GOOD FOR YOU! I was already eating good. I was aready walking 1-2 miles aday. I was aready riding my bike 2 miles a week or more. I was aready hiking weekley(saterdays so kids could go).

I had to have surgery in April and I have still not gotten released from the dr yet. She is worried out will do too much before I heal enough. I have begun walking but for 30 mins every two days. I have not yet climbed back on my bike yet. And am hopping I get my release in Step. (thats when I go back to dr). I miss hiking,biking, and I am so ready to get back to my daily things. With having to take so long to heal, I know I am going to get back in to things slower. I did get premisson to go camping next month ( if hubby don't have to work). The fear there is keeping meds cool. But I have gotten a lot of ideas from other diabetics that have to also keep meds cool.

But it is here for the taking. If any  one wants it.

I have a new post comming soon. Entitled : I wish I was a diabetic. Someone told me that not too long ago. I will share on that one as soon as I find my diary. Thats where I wrote what was said and what happen. I want it all to be said and done right. just incase she ever reads it here. I will not use her real name.

Thank you for letting me vent. Even if no one ever reads it.