Well, it's been a while since I've been on here.  I finally have a computer for myself, Santa showed up this year with two laptops, one for each of my son's so now I have a computer for myself.  YEAH! 

Things have been going well for me and my glucose levels.  You know those tv commercials that says that "your meter is your life line"?  Well, they really are.  I've noticed that when I feel bad, I test.  When I feel agitated, I test.  I'm buzzing around, I test.  I can't get my thoughts together, I test, you get the picture.  I never really thought about it but it seems everything revolves around my glucose level.  Since I've become more aware of how I feel and where my gloucose levels are at that time, I've finally got myself under control, and the best part is I've acutally started loosing weight!

Some days I have to make myself go and take my meds.  I get discourged and think, "why do this today, what's the point?  My glucose levels are already high and I've not even ate anything yet."  Then I look at my boys and my husband and think, "I have to do this, I want to go to all the places my husband and I have been planning for the last 18 years.  I want to see my boys graduate school, go to college, get married, and have families of their own." 

My husband and I have been thinking whether or not to have another child since our boys are teenagers and will be leaving the "nest" in a few years.  With my age and being diabetic with diabetic complications already I know I'd be a really high risk.  But I think we've decided to wait for grandchildren.  (I'm in no big hurry)  Maybe I should enjoy the time my husband and I are alone now.  We haven't been alone for the last 16 years.  I find its hard to fill my time.  I work full time but when I come home or on the weekends, or when school is on a break I find myself having to "find" things to do.  (So I don't just sit and eat.)

Oh, well...these are just some of my thoughts.